Nick Cummins ’caused a lot of pain and grief’ as he reflects on relationship with father Mark

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Nick Cummins admits he ’caused a lot of pain and grief’ as he reflects on healing his rocky relationship with his terminally ill father Mark

Nick Cummins has reflected on opening up about his rocky relationship with his terminally ill father Mark during last week’s episode of SAS Australia.

In a clip shared to his Instagram on Monday, the 33-year-old said that he finally realised that he was ‘a little mongrel who caused a lot of pain and grief’ after years of thinking that his parents were in the wrong.

The former rugby union player also admitted that if it weren’t for his father’s ‘direction’ and ‘discipline’ then he ‘wouldn’t be where he is today.’

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‘I caused a lot of pain and grief’: Nick Cummins has reflected on opening up about his rocky relationship with his terminally ill father Mark during last week’s episode of SAS Australia

Nick began the video by saying that he went to dad’s house, sat down and had a chat with him after watching last week’s emotional episode.

‘When you’re a youngster you think you’re a hard done boy. You think you’re right, you think your parents are wrong, and you think that your parents don’t understand.

‘In a few years time, you do a bit of reflecting and you realise that maybe you were a little bugger, you’re the little mongrel that causes a lot of pain and grief, and you needed direction, and you needed discipline.’

Nick went on to explain that his conversation about his dad on SAS Australia was ‘slightly exaggerated.’

'You think your parents don't understand': In a clip shared to his Instagram on Monday, the 33-year-old said that he finally realised that he was 'a little mongrel who caused a lot of pain and grief' after years of thinking that his parents were in the wrong

‘You think your parents don’t understand’: In a clip shared to his Instagram on Monday, the 33-year-old said that he finally realised that he was ‘a little mongrel who caused a lot of pain and grief’ after years of thinking that his parents were in the wrong

'I love my parents dearly': The former rugby union player also admitted that if it weren't for his father Mark's 'direction' and 'discipline' then he 'wouldn't be where he is today.' Pictured together

‘I love my parents dearly’: The former rugby union player also admitted that if it weren’t for his father Mark’s ‘direction’ and ‘discipline’ then he ‘wouldn’t be where he is today.’ Pictured together 

‘It was no more than any other family, and when it [discipline] was needed, it was given. I’m so grateful for that because I wouldn’t be where I am today without it. Thank you for that my parents I love them dearly.’

He also advised others struggling with their families to make peace with their loves ones before Christmas.

‘All this superficial rubbish that’s on the surface that holds us back expressing ourselves, it can all be gone.

'Drop the ego and swallow the pride': He also advised others struggling with their families to make peace with their loves ones before Christmas

‘Drop the ego and swallow the pride’: He also advised others struggling with their families to make peace with their loves ones before Christmas

‘As long as you drop the ego and swallow your pride and go and tell them how you feel, then all of a sudden you’ll see all of these levels of connection and love reappear and you’ll have a beautiful loving Christmas.’

In last Monday’s episode of SAS Australia, Nick revealed his rocky relationship with his dad, Mark.

Nick explained that when he was 13, he was ‘going through a pretty tough time at school’ and refused his dad’s help.

‘Gangs and stuff, death threats, all that sort of thing. I was trying to handle it and my old man tried to help me, and I was in a dark space and I told him to eff off,’ he said.

Nick explained that his uncle had been murdered, and he wanted to protect his father from anything similar happening.

‘I didn’t want him to go through that, but I added so much more pain onto him when I told him that,’ he acknowledged. 

Emotional: Nick spoke about his relationship with his father during a raw confessional on last Monday's episode of SAS Australia

Emotional: Nick spoke about his relationship with his father during a raw confessional on last Monday’s episode of SAS Australia

‘And he didn’t flog me, which made it even worse. Because I was always reliant that that was the thing, the even thing.

‘And now he’s got terminal cancer, and I think that situation has driven me through my career to work harder, to try and prove to him that I’m deserving of his love, and I want to try and make that happen before it’s too late.’

At the mention of Nick’s father’s cancer diagnosis, Merrick Watts grew visibly emotional, after earlier revealing his biggest regret was deleting the last voicemail message he’d received from his late father before listening to it.  

Affected: At the mention of Nick's father's cancer diagnosis, Merrick Watts (pictured) grew visibly emotional, after earlier revealing his biggest regret was deleting the last voicemail message he'd received from his late father before listening to it

Affected: At the mention of Nick’s father’s cancer diagnosis, Merrick Watts (pictured) grew visibly emotional, after earlier revealing his biggest regret was deleting the last voicemail message he’d received from his late father before listening to it

As he began to tear up, Nick struggled to keep his emotions in check and was rendered unable to speak.

He was later pulled into an interrogation with the show’s DS (directing staff), where he spoke more about his dad and his strict upbringing.

‘We were brought up with a strong moral code, and a good sense of right and wrong,’ he said. 

Family life: He was later pulled into an interrogation with the show's DS (directing staff), where he spoke more about his dad and his strict upbringing

Family life: He was later pulled into an interrogation with the show’s DS (directing staff), where he spoke more about his dad and his strict upbringing

Nick also reflected on the heartbreaking moment he found out about his dad’s cancer diagnosis, revealing he cried for half an hour.  

‘I remember the phone call. It was a life-changing moment. He said, “Just back from the doctor’s.” I was like, “Oh, are you all good?”‘ he began.

‘And he goes, “I’ve got another couple of years.” A couple of days later, I was in the shower and it all sort of hit me, and I just sort of slid to the bottom of the shower.’

Devastating: Nick also reflected on the heartbreaking moment he found out about his dad's cancer diagnosis, revealing he cried for half an hour

Devastating: Nick also reflected on the heartbreaking moment he found out about his dad’s cancer diagnosis, revealing he cried for half an hour

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